The name of the blog might be misleading since I'm not really a kid. I'm turning twenty this year and I'm hardly what you would call a settled college student. I'm lost. I keep having all these ideas in my head, so I thought I'd keep a record of them.
This year I'm planning to drop out from my course (I'm a first year Computer Science student) and apply to read Mathematics in the US. It's going to be tough for me seeing as I'm not receiving much support from my family; no one wants to talk about it. They think the idea will just evaporate from my mind one day, which won't happen.
I'll be meeting a counsellor tomorrow, regarding application to US colleges. I've got so many questions and I fear that the answers will not be to my liking. I think the biggest problem is that I have zero extracurricular activities. I don't stay idle in my free time, but, I don't have any certified achievement or any work experience. I wonder if I could remedy that in my gap year.
Some might call me stubborn or even plain stupid. I'll admit that I'm guilty of both. Sometimes, you just want to push yourself some more because everything might turn out okay. Just so you know, I've had the wind knocked out of me twice. I had applied twice to my dream university and got rejected both times. So why bother again now? Frankly, I don't think I can put this in mere words. I'd say that to find salvation, it's necessary to cross unknown barriers and also get lost in strange lands. I've known failure and I daresay that some more would come my way. But, I'll do what I do every time: rise from the ashes and find greener pastures to trod upon.
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